Hopeless...

I’ve hopelessly fallen in love with you,
My hands are bruised, there’s no coming back,
Every action of yours, every emotion,
That flick of the eyebrows, the widening of the eyes,
That smile that beats a thousand lights,
The motions of your hands, the swish of your fingers,
The tender voice, a whisper, but oh so divine,
Sometimes, I just wish I could tell you,
But, no, when I do gather the courage,
I try approaching you, I see you by my side,
I walk towards you, your eyes light up on seeing me,
A smile written across your face, you wait,
I smile back, my steps toward you gaining pace,
Though I walk, I dream, flying in heaven, bliss and joyous,
You draw closer, your face becomes clearer,
And still you prefer to stand than approach me,
Butterflies in my stomach, a churn, a moan,
My palms sweat, my heart races,
Three more steps…two more…one more…none…
Silence prevails, I can see, my reflection in your eyes,
Tension breaks, “Hi…I need to talk to you…” I utter.
“tell me dear..” you say and wait expectantly,
Oh it was at that moment, the wind blew a strand of hair
Onto your face, and I again fell hopelessly in love.
“what’s up ?” your eyes question me,
I look up into your eyes, a million thoughts run,
I want to say to you, I love you,
I want you forever in my life,
I want to hug you and make you mine,
But, I get lost in the beauty of your eyes,
And even as the world seems to blur,
My tongue finally gathers courage enough
I stutter, I stammer and finally I say…
“Nothing…Nothing...”
And I hopelessly fall in love, again.

The pain...

My heart aches, numb and broken,
My eyes moist, my thoughts sad,
I know I’ve lost you to that someone,
I know you’ll never feel for me again,
You move on, a new relationship,
Maybe, an occasional hi or a bye,
Maybe, a false mask of happiness,
When I’m around… I know it’s difficult,
But, please do this for me dear,
I love you so, you’ve fallen for him, yes,
But, avoid me not…Oh dear, how can
I get to forget you, to erase you from
My memories..? Sometimes, it’s better,
To let you go, you seem happy when
You’re with me, but, though I can deny it,
You are much more happier when
I’m not around….Oh God, Life is hopeless,
Love is unconditional, but, the pain…
The pain alone is real.

Agony...

Every morning and every night,
There’s not a second I’m not thinking of you,
I know it’s useless to,
But, what else could I do ?
God, please help me out.
Love is a wicked gate of thorns,
I’m trying my best to withdraw,
Trying my best to not let the butterflies
Flutter when you smile, when you laugh,
When you speak, when you look at me,
But, I surrender, meekly…
How is it that you are able to stop
Yourselves from loving someone,
Teach me too, for I desperately want to.
I have but one bad habit,
And that is loving you,
Futile and fruitless though it may seem,
What am I to do…?
Help me oh God…

An empty heart...

Oh my dear friend,
Throughout my cursed life,
I’ve been living lies,
Been denying myself the joy,
Of being there for you forever,
All I’m left with now,
Is an empty heart.
I have always loved you,
Wanted much more from you,
But no, I stopped myself,
Just for the sake of friendship.
It’s a pain, for you hide your love,
You hide your heart’s desire
But, I’m not sure how you’d have taken it,
For you, Friends are just friends
and lovers are strangers.
Oh dear, I still cry thinking of the day
When I finally need to part with you,
Give you away to someone who
Doesn’t deserve you and love you,
On your wedding, I’ll be the saddest man on earth.
They say to win a diamond, you lose gold,
I lost everthing, just to be with you,
I love you more than anyone else does,
But, I know, six years from now,
I’ll lose you too…
Oh dear, Is there no way out ?
I need to stop writing now,
I’m crying…
But, still all I’ll be left with
Six years from now,
Is an empty heart.

A pool of blood...

Memories fade, incidents decay,
Voices turn to whispers,
Life moves on, leaving behind those,
Who can’t help themselves,
Time flies and anger yields,
Only the pain lingers.
Bubbles threaten to burst,
Squabbles turn to fights,
Life starts at eighteen, but,
Oh, ends, so awkwardly nineteen.
The trauma, the storm swallows,
Pride, ego and love forgotten,
Twists and turns treacherous,
Whips and burns pleasure us.
Lying in a pool of blood, a lake
Of death, a girl of nine raped,
A father of two, devil’s advocate.
Tongues out, A boy of twelve hangs
Peer pressure oh so loud,
Sex the key, the key to fame,
At fifteen, your fifteen seconds of fame.
Love for babies never so well proclaimed,
Time and tide wait for none, oh so ashamed.
Trials and tribulations, jails and revelations,
God waits, What we sow we reap,
What we reap makes us weep,
Life hots up at eighteen,
Hookahs, cigarettes, wine and beer inviting,
Nineteen is in, bring it on,
Clubs, pubs, discos, the young fad,
Ass, how dare you, that’s my gal !
Knives out, wrists sliced, love is pure,
So is death, and so is sorrow.
Fighting for a cause never got any bigger,
Twenty, and kids turn men,
The world soars, our lives sours,
And still we wait, the police included,
For God to come and wield his magic.