Dead...

When death reaches out for us, I pray,
That I die before you, I’d never bear to be
At your funeral, to see your lifeless face,
So beautiful even in death, or, touch your forehead
At the morgue, I can sense tears in my eyes
Even thinking of it, dear, so I pray…
Someday when I’m dead, you can talk about me,
To your grandchildren, and then I hope they say
“granny…he loved you so much…”
And I want you to not cry at that dear,
But, to smile…your beautiful smile.

Love...

You’d never know how much I cared for you,
You are my heartbeat, my life, my all,
My words may fill a page, not your heart,
Life’s beauty, a fate I need to accept,
But, when I look at you, I think, maybe,
It’s worth the pain just to see you smile.

They say loving someone is nothing,
Someone loving you is something,
I don’t need that something in my life,
I’d be happy with that nothing, because,
In my life, Nothing is everything for me…
My dearest.

Joy of my life...

Sometimes I’d approach you to speak to you,
And, then, something happens, mind blanks,
I get Alzheimer’s…I’m still not able to decipher,
It’s got nothing to do with love, but,
Something to do with YOU… My beautiful angel,
I agree, all the times we spent together,
Will remain etched in my memory,
No one can take it away from me,
I will live in my fantasy world, hoping
In my wildest dreams, I can be with you
Forever, but, I know my time is short,
Four years is all that I’ve got…

You know about me, don’t you ? I know my limits,
I’d never dare to exceed them, hurting you
Will surely kill me more than your silence will.
I don’t need the world to be happy,
I need you for YOU are my world,
The closer you are to me, the happier I am,
You don’t need to be perfect,
But you are so perfect for me,
In you, I have found myself, and,
In you, I’ve found the greatest joy of my life,
And, When I am wit you, I never want to leave…
My dearest…

My dear...

As we grow older, and your hair becomes white,
I’d look back to these beautiful days,
The days when I yearned for you, waited,
For your messages, your call, hours on end,
Looking at my phone, and when a beep rings,
I jump to see if it is from you, then throw it back
Disappointed, never was it love, something greater…
You were a part of me, and I needed your messages,
For they were my tonic, for the best thing about me
Is you…I’ve told you before and I’ll tell you again,
As we grow older, we continue to change, but,
One thing will never change, my dearest, that
I will still continue to love you.

You...

God is truly amazing, sometimes, I wondered,
Why he gave me, two eyes, two ears,
Two legs and two hands, but only one heart ?
But, then I realized, oh…you have the other…!
My love for you can never be explained,
My silence when I look at you speaks much more
Than the words filling these pages,
But, never mind, I want to enjoy my time wit yo,
I’d always admire God for what he does,
Things we love remain only for a few moments,
Like a passing cloud, a rainbow, your smile,
God gives me an angel, but, then, threatens
To take her away at 23, to me you are everything,
And when you leave me, I will be left wit nothing.
Nothing but your memories, my dearest,
But, it is enough, I’d go without food, water, shelter,
But, never in my life would I survive without
You.

Timeline...

You gave me a time-limit to write about you,
Give me the poems on the 22nd you say,
There might be a timeline for my life,
Never a timeline for me to write about you,
You know words just flow, unending,
When I think of you I lose track of time,
Give me a pen and millions of paper, I’d sit through
To the end of my life, to write about you.

Imperfect...

Three years have passed, flown like the wind,
All that remains are the memories of you and me,
Together, the happiness, the joy, the pain, the sorrow,
And I wonder if I’d forever be a fool,
Loving you, yearning for you, your smile,
Oh...but, I remember, the days you’d just look,
Past me, not daring to meet my eyes,
The pain, the torture, was something I couldn’t bear.

I’m tired of crying, of trying to explain,
What did I expect from you ? Love ? maybe…
I’ve tried to move on, to forget you…
But, when I close my eyes…all I see is you.
All the times I’ve cried, it has no meaning,
Tears are only for the dustbin, I understand,
The hurt, the pain, it kills me...but, still,
I’m not able to stop…’coz when I close my eyes,
All I see is you…

You ask me to prove my love by dying for you,
And I say NO…not because I’m afraid of death,
I’m just afraid there’d be no one for you,
In your future, you’d need me, to face your fears,
Hold my hand to win the world, I want to be around,
To teach your children, grandchildren, my dearest…
Doesn’t matter if you care not for me, but, you do,
You accept me as the imperfect guy I am.
My affection for you is eternal, it will never die,
I will never be able to stop, because, when I close my eyes,
All I see is you…and all I want say to you is…
I love you.

The night...

One day you will turn around and ask me,
“How much do you love me ?”
And with a blank face, I’d look at you,
And say, how can my love be measured ?
It’s like the ocean, infinite, vast, and never-ending,
My love can never be measured, it’s not
How many times I say I love you,
It’s just how much I really do, one day,
I’ll look up into the starry night sky,
And I will look for the moon, for in the moon,
I see you my angel, they say loving you is wrong,
But, I say to them, I never want to be right again,
And, I will always love you, through the length,
Breadth and depths of my heart, my dearest,
I know my time is short, you will marry someone,
And I’d have to say goodbye to you, but, never
Will I stop loving you, you are my heartbeat,
Why am I afraid to lose you when you are not mine ?
For that I have no answer, but, sometimes I believe,
Saying goodbye is just a painful way of saying,
I love you….

Tears...

Just promise me this, one day
when it’s time for us to part,
to take the different routes God
gave us, you’ll look back, and,
remember the times we spent
together, once your tears have dried,
and your spirits soar again, you will
sit back, touch your heart, take these
poems out and read them, a tear
will fall from your beautiful eyes,
and I just hope that wherever I might be,
In India, America or heaven, I’d be
By your side to wipe your tears,
Not physically, but, atleast in your memories,
You’d remember that this guy wanted you
To never cry again in your life, and,
Out of the respect for an idiot who loved you,
You’d lift your heavenly fingers,
And just wipe the tear off your cheeks,
And say to yourself, this one is for you Vishnu.
And I promise you, wherever I might be
At that point of time, I will sense your actions,
And I will smile, and fall in love again.